Honesty #4

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The big challenge of the day is: Do I take something for pain and fatigue or not?? I hate taking medication! I don’t care what anyone says, it is all bad for you in one way or another. It may help one thing but it will cause another problem and then you need more medicine for that. I think taking something ounce in a while is usually ok but everyday or multiple times a day can be a problem. Pain medicine like Advil or Tylenol is not good to take all the time which is what I would need. I don’t want to be on narcotic’s for the simple fact of I have a family to raise. I’m afraid I will keep needing something stronger and stronger and will end up on a morphine pump or something. Or I will be a zombie and not be able to function anyways so why bother. So I take a prescription non narcotic a few times a week. It helps so much but if I take it every day I end up needing more and more. Also when I took it before regularly and decided to stop for awhile because I was having some issues with feeling nauseas all the time, which can be a side effect. Turns out I was addicted to the stuff. Even though it is not a narcotic it is highly addictive which my Dr. failed to inform me of. I have never been addicted to anything other than chocolate (lol) and it made me feel horrible. I tried to stop a few times but would get so sick with diarrhea, vomiting, chills and hot flashes and pain all over like I had a fever or something. The first time I just thought I had the flu. When it happened again and I felt better when I took it I googled the medicine. I knew when I saw all the warning’s that it is highly addictive and what the sign’s were that that was what I was experiencing. I was only able to come off of it while in the hospital after a hip surgery and on morphine. Problem is I have tried several other things and it seems to be the only thing I’m not allergic or have severe side effects to that works for me. I talked to my Dr. about this and she said to try to just take it every other day or so. Not on a regular basis like I did before and I should be ok. So that’s what I do. Every day I wake up and try to decide is today the day I feel like I have a lot to catch up on around the house or errands to run. Truth be told I feel that way every day. So I just have to suck it up and do what I can without it some days. So far so good I do not get sick when I don’t take it so that is a good sign. I know God made me this way for a reason and try not to question him but some days it’s just a battle. Why me? Why my children? Then I see or hear about other’s who are so inspirational to me and it puts me back in check. That is one reason I choose to share things with the world. I can only hope and pray it helps someone else get through the day. Maybe just maybe it will be the push someone needs to donate the last dollar needed to find a treatment or cure. Please keep this challenge of mine in your prayers. I truly believe that is what gets me through. Love and hugs to you all, Nicole

One Response to “Honesty #4”

  1. Josh Smith Says:

    This one I can relate a lot to. Not that my pain level is anywhere close to yours. But I do have my issues. With knowing my past, this can be a dangerous game. I admire your strength and honesty when it comes to having the make a daily decision on whether or not you need something to help you. I know for me when something says take as needed, well then I feel like I need it all the time. So I tell the Dr’s I am allergic to anything that says “Take as needed.”
    Thanks for another great post. God is at work here.

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